June 17th thoughts

Today I wake up with "be near" in my mind. I sit here reading my email and this comes on....I love this song and sometimes I feel this way...the thing is, we tend to believe in a God that punishes us when we are bad and blesses us when we are good. This is not the truth about God...sure with obedience comes blessing, but there is not an angry bitter old man sitting on the throne.

Thing today about your "vision" of God....do you see him running to you...smile on his face...arms open wide?? If not, find out why you don't feel that way about God. He's not looking to strike you down, he wants to embrace you.

Ok I went off on that but here is what was on the radio.

Never Alone by Barrlow Girl

I waited for you today But you didn't show No no. I needed you today So where did you go? You told me to call Said you'd be there And though I haven't seen you Are you still there? Chorus I cried out with no reply And I can't feel you by my side So I'll hold tight to what I know You're here and I'm never alone And though I cannot see you And I can't explain why Such a deep reassurance You've placed in my life. We cannot separate 'Cause you're part of me. And though you're invisible I'll trust the unseen.

and then this came on...really cool and kinda goes with the "theme" of this week...walking blameless and righteous.

You think I'd have it down by now Been practicin' for thirty years I should have walked a thousand miles So what am I still doin' here yeah Reachin' out for that same old piece of forbidden fruit I slip and fall and I knock my halo loose Somebody tell me what's a boy supposed to do? CHORUS: I get so clumsy I get so foolish I get so stupid And then I feel so useless But You're sayin' You love me And You're still gonna hold me And that You wanna be near me 'Cause You're makin' me holy You're still makin' me holy, yeah I'm gonna get it right this time I'll be strong and I'll make You proud I've prayed that prayer a thousand times But the rooster crows and my tears roll down again Then You remind me You made me from the dust And I can never, no never, be good enough And that You're not gonna let that come between us From where I stand Your holiness is up so high I could never reach it My only hope is to fall on Jesus