10.17 Notes

Ps 19:14, 40:1-3, Leviticus 11:44-45, 19:2, I Peter 1:14-16

14 May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.

Psalm 40
For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.
1 I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.
3 He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear and put their trust in the LORD.


44 I am the LORD your God; consecrate yourselves and be holy, because I am holy. Do not make yourselves unclean by any creature that moves about on the ground. 45 I am the LORD who brought you up out of Egypt to be your God; therefore be holy, because I am holy.

2 "Speak to the entire assembly of Israel and say to them: 'Be holy because I, the LORD your God, am holy.


14As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. 15But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; 16for it is written: "Be holy, because I am holy."

Be Holy.....H O L Y....

What does that mean? I'm holy, alright, holEy. There are so many holes in this soul....I have alot of patchwork. I wonder if God sees that sometimes. I"m sure there's a hole somewhere that my foot fits in....probably my mouth. It really needs some patchwork of its own.

As I contemplate the taste of my shoe....Jars of Clay ring in the background.

A promise or a dare
I would jump if I knew you'd catch me
Staring over the edge
I can't tell if you'll be here for me
I close my eyes and make a wish
Turn out the lights and take a breath
Pray that when the wick is burned
You would say that it's all about love

CHORUS: You were there when I needed you
You were there when the skies broke wide, wide open
You were there when I needed you
You were there when the skies broke wide, wide open

You were never here
I remember you said Love was more than your good intentions
Empty boxes on the floor
Things I never asked you for
I pray that when the wick is burned
You would say that it's all about love

And I can't see the promise of
Excuses you fall upon I pray to God not holding on
To things you've left undone

You were there when I You were there when I You were there when I needed


Interesting Choice of Words....

A promise or a dare
I would jump if I knew you'd catch me
Staring over the edge
I can't tell if you'll be here for me

There is a sense of doubt. I would jump if I Knew....

I think I feel that way sometimes...er...alot.....more often than I would like to admit. I stare over the edge fearing I'll be pushed. Like a mother eagle pushes her young out of the nest, a lesson in flying. I think do I really want to fly? Fly in terms of rapture...ok, yes. Fly in terms of lessons...sipping my coffee to get the shoe taste out of my mouth...the answer is NO.

But then, HOW do I learn, I do I know You'll Catch Me? The peace I have right now is scarey...I peer around the corner...stare over the edge. Please don't push me, PLEASE don't push me...PUL-EASE don't push me.

Off I go......

Did I miss the part where I say Geranamooooooo?

To be continued.....

10.11 Notes

Hebrews 3:1, Hebrews 13:8, Joshua 1:7

These are my thoughts today....

1Therefore, holy brothers, who share in the heavenly calling, fix your thoughts on Jesus, the apostle and high priest whom we confess.


8Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.


7 Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go.


In my journal here I write. "May I" May I be strong and courageous.... Yes I May...but can I? will I? Is more the question. Again today, I petition for renewal, development, change.

I listen to Creflo Dollar for a while....he is teaching on Who Am I in Christ. Do You Know WHO You Are?

*Made in His Image
*Gods Princess
*Seed of Abraham
*Joint Heir
*Righteousness of God
*MORE than a conquorer

Jesus came to give us [back] the Authority.
Adam had the authority and gave it away
Jesus came to take back the authority and give it to us.

Satan likes to attack your identity....your authority.

You have the authority...some things God won't do for you because YOU have the authority.

So tell me, WHO ARE YOU?

David and Goliath

Then as I'm reading I hear Casting Crowns....the voice of truth...

Oh what I would do to have The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant With just a sling and a stone Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors Shaking in their armor Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

Then I GOT IT again!

Its OK to shake in your armor, so then I read the familiar story of David and Goliath. And notice a few things about Goliath...he had on armor and he had a shield bearer.

David was obedient to his father...delegated the shepherding, packed his supplies, went on the journey, gave his "baggage" to the appropriate person when he arrived, didn't let the "talk" of his brother bother him and RAN to the battle.

The reward was that his family wouldn't have to pay taxes to Saul...hhahaha, little does Saul know!

Also I kept thinking about The Armor...what went thru my mind over and over was "feet shod with the preparation of the gospel"

Shod....what does that mean? So I looked it up.

From the root word: Deo
to bind tie, fasten
to bind, fasten with chains, to throw into chains
metaph.
Satan is said to bind a woman bent together by means of a demon, as his messenger, taking possession of the woman and preventing her from standing upright
to bind, put under obligation, of the law, duty etc. 1b
to be bound to one, a wife, a husband
to forbid, prohibit, declare to be illicit

The Metaphor is what caught my attention. That is exactly how I have felt over the past few weeks. But I kept praying and seeking God and doing my bible study and reading the word.

10/20

YIKES I need to update this place!

This is from my journal October 20th

have studied and prayed and studied and cried out to the Lord. I got a revelation the other day. It just HIT ME!

I started reading colossians...which for some reason led me to Phillipians 3.

We all know it....say it with me...
12Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

yada yada yada....we can all say it forwards and backwards.

For some reason I have not seen this before....I guess cuz I have focused so much on "not that I have already obtained this.....or fogetting what is behind....straining...I press on....

This jumped off the page yesterday.

15All of us who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you. 16Only let us live up to what we have already attained.

Only let us live up to what we have already attained. Ok so all this stuff that I haven't attained.....don't try to live up to that.

I am not Prov. 31 Woman. (not yet)I am not who I want to be (not yet) who I will be come is still "becoming". The full of me hasn't been "attained".

Only live up to what I have attained. I GET IT!